You see that picture? I've put up four pictures of me in a scarf on Facebook in my CJ Creations page. This is the only one that hasn't sold of those four. And from these pictures I've even received custom orders again. Maybe it's the excitement for fall. Maybe people are just in love with them. Either way, I'm just excited to be selling some handmade items again. I'm sure that sounds a little weird. When you ask me where I want to be in 10 - 15 years, I'd answer that I would want to be a well known author and speaker traveling the states bringing a message of life and truth to those who need it. So why am I so excited about scarves? When I get locked in to one field- writing, training, creating- for too long, I feel the life getting drained out of me. I love all three aspects of my business life. I don't want to lose any of them. So I've been sitting around the house knitting lately because it calms me. I've been working on hats and scarves. It's a great activity for relaxing my mind while I watch something on Netflix with my husband. Lately, I've had some focus and shifts in my training career. People in. People out. A running booklet. A conditioning packet. Because of the last two, the training and writing have been merging. That is something I didn't want to do a year ago. Everyone who knew me as a trainer would say, "Oh do you write fitness books?" I'd roll my eyes and sigh because that is the only thing people thought I was good at. Exercise. Yay. So now that I am finally combining the two, my creative side was wanting to come out and play. There is something incredible when a person recognizes me as an author. Kids know the character names and this feeling wells up within me that I can barely control. I feel accomplished. My calling is being reinforced. Being a personal trainer can be difficult for me. I get involved in people's lives. I care about them. And I look at their health in ways others around them don't. I'm invested. There are great highs and terrible lows. However, being recognized for training is also a great validation. It's a part of me I love. Having someone tell me they want something I made. I'm always a little shocked and truly excited. I've made things I thought were ugly as sin, but I made it for someone that would love it immensely. I've made custom orders that I didn't care for, but they wanted it. So now, to be sitting in my chair knitting away at something that I like and have people want it to? Oh, that's thrilling. It all comes down to a feeling of validation and affirmation. We all have these different areas of life that make us who we are. Over and over again I know that I am a mother. I know that I am a homeschool mama. I know that I am married. I know that I work at the farmer's market on Saturdays to sell my books, and I know that I will be outside sweating with clients during workouts. When we lose a part of ourselves, like closing the doors to my shop, we lose that affirmation. It's hard to let go of something that makes us who we are. Honestly, I am just so thankful to be back into each area of my life. I'm grateful for the chance to combine parts of me like the running manual. The body will always struggle when it is missing a part. The soul does too. I hope that you are doing things in your life that fill each role and aspect of you.
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