Parents are always ruining their kids. It's what happens. I know I've messed my kids. You will too, if you haven't already. If you don't have kids, you probably ruined someone else's kid. It happens. Circle of life and all that jazz.
My problems, as of late, all seem to stem from the same root of how I was ruined by my parents. I'm going to emphasize my dad, just because I've seen him do it far too many times, but don't worry, both parents are to blame. Ready for it? I believe in doing what is right, even if nobody is around to see it, or if nobody else will care. Doing the right thing is never the wrong thing - thanks Ted Lasso. I know, this is silly. How on earth could this "do right" attitude ruin me? This is a good thing! I want to do what is right just because it is right. Not everyone else feels that way. The last few weeks I have been met with a "I do what I need to" attitude. Quite frankly, it's just a horrible way to be with people. I have had people not pay me for my work. I have had people show up late. I have had people not do their due diligence in projects that require teamwork. This morning I couldn't help but feel that people were taking advantage of me. I was frustrated. Hurt. Angry. My expectations of humans, and humans that I am in partnership with, are that they will act right. They will do what is right. It isn't because I am so wonderful that they will do what is right, but simply because it is the right thing to do. How wrong am I! My expectations are completely misguided. Today I took two bags of trash out at my kids' dance studio. I am not a janitor. I don't get anything out of it. So why would I do it? It needed to be done. I was there. I did it. I also return my cart at grocery stores. If I don't want an item, I go back to where I found it and put it where it came from. These aren't monstrous things. It's common courtesy. That's why I expect that when I have entered a contract with someone, or I am working with them in any capacity, they will do their part. It's the right thing to do. That's not how life is. While living in my frustrations for a moment, I tried to talk it out. What I realized was that not everyone was raised the same way. And even if they were, not everyone cares to continue to do what is right. We live in a wretched world. We are selfish beings. I need to not hold others to my standards; even if my standards are right. So I'm screwed up. I keep forgetting that not everyone cares about doing the right thing. I just have to keep doing what I know is right, even if it isn't reciprocated.
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