I have a blog.
Holy cow. I have a blog. I consistently (weekly) post my blog for my loving, adoring readers. I haven't posted in a few weeks. I am sorry for that. Life just sort of... slipped away. Each Thursday I had the intentions of posting, yet, I didn't. I didn't type out the words that I had in my notebook, and so, I've left the blog alone. I do apologize. I thought about just posting in order, the plan that I had, but I feel led to write this instead. Sometimes life slips away. Two Thursdays ago, I was busy and trying to get my life in order, but also stressed because my husband's car was being worked on and he had mine. I felt stranded. I felt vulnerable. I could not escape if I wanted to. And so, to ease some of my anxiety, I left you all. I'm sure whatever I did instead was not exactly what someone in the world of high success would call worthy of my time, but for my mental health, it was worthy. Last week was similar except that I did, in fact, have my car back. I was free to roam as I needed, and well, I needed! My goodness, some days are just plain busy. And once I had a moment to myself, I chose to sit. Again, mindless. Not what others call "worthy," but I don't care. Sometimes we need to have unworthy time of vegging out. I know we can't always, nor should we always, sit around and watch TV or read a book, or any other lounging, unproductive time. But there are very real times when we need our minds to wander through the vast world of nothingness. We need to allow ourselves to escape lists, chores, and deadlines. We need to let our brain check out, if only for a few minutes, so that they can come back refreshed and ready. Many of you know that I struggle with anxiety. People who fight anxiety know that it is near impossible to sit down and relax when there is anything on that precious to-do list. It eats at us. It tears us apart. After all, that list is there to keep us on track so that we aren't weighed down by the world of deadlines. So why did I let mine slip? At the end of the day, if I don't write my blog, it probably doesn't hurt anyone. Sure, sometimes my pursuit to help others does actually do that. And I certainly don't aim to hurt people in my posts. I feel as though my world is helpful and neutral. Let's face it - when you came scrolling to my blog, were you heartbroken that I didn't have new content from the last two weeks? Probably not. If anything, this blog is more for my benefit than yours! And so, I allowed it to slip. I washed away any guilty feelings with a cup of coffee and relaxed. You can too. I know you can. You can make your list. You can order it from most to least important. And if it doesn't make the cut, it doesn't make the cut. Sometimes, some things are allowed to slip.
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